boredom

my life outside work bores me. and that is something that scares me.

whenever i leave the school building, i start getting bored. really, really bored.
i have so many lovely people and things to do in my life. i have eleven metres of bookshelves, filled up dozens of books i have not read yet. i have a family (which is always a source of whatever keeps you from just sitting around doing nothing). i could go out and get entertainment or cultural input or whatever else i want to keep me (and my imagination) busy.

but i keep asking myself - nowadays - whether meeting someone i suspect has a completely different horizon than i have, lives in a world very different from mine, made me think about how narrow my world is.. or if unconsciously realizing (is that a contradiction?) that i am bored, created such an urge to change things that i ended up looking for someone to help me do that? or - and i hope this is not true - i just imagine him being so different?

whatever i see, whatever i read, whatever i do, whatever i think, it is always within certain limits. limits which were built up by my surroundings, my education, my experience, my memories. everything seems to be limiting my way of thinking, feeling, experiencing to that world. the world i already know. i used to like that world. i used to think it was actually rather deep and wide and that there was no limit to thought and imagination.

but - nowadays - i suspect myself to be extremely limited by the way i am and the way i am used to think and feel. and it bores me.

could someone please tell me what's wrong with me?