lost...

in between worlds... i feel sometimes.

i think...
... i expect too much from the people around me.

... i don't fit in very well - as it is written in many books: if you live a different life style, by choice or because it is forced on you by changes you didn't plan - with the lives of the people around me. they are either very young or they are in the "proper stage": founding families, making plans for the future, taking responsibility. everything they decide is connected to other people, eveything i decide is only about me.

... i don't know where my place is in their lives.

... some of them don't take me very seriously, well maybe me, but not my troubles. and i can understand it.

... there are more important things than feeling a little out of place, to have a stupidly broken heart, to feel a little misunderstood sometimes, a little left alone.

... it actually is silly and not appropriate to my age and anticipated stage of life - but it still hurts.

sorry.